Well finally i did it after contemplating for many days that whether i should shift loyalties to google i finally decided to transfer all my blogs from rediff to blogspot.I guess it had to do with my ever increasing love for google as i go on using more of its products and the fact that i could not change my url on rediffblogs despite numerous attempts.My earlier url was http//soy_el_mejor.rediffblogs.com and thanks to the proxy setting in my institute which doesn't allow you to open any url with _ in it so i had to change the url or give all my friends my password for rediff so they can go and comment on my blog.
Although i am a bit disappointed at losing the comments(small in number nevertheless precious) on the old one but i am sure you all will reciprocate and fill this blog with many comments.
Here is something that i picked up in someone else's blog.I dont know how this reflects on me but nevertheles here goes..

[17/05/2005 09:32:34] [From Rediff Blogs]

MY THOUGHTS

As I grow older
I see things in a different light
For reasons only I know
Life and the world around me
Becomes so much more important

A beautiful sunrise or sunset
The soothing sound of rain falling on a tin roof
A soft breeze whispering against my face
The sweet melody of birds singing in the trees.

In times of uncertainty
I hardly know what to do
It's acrimonious to seek words
That is understanding and logical.

So, I stumble along grasping
At an element to guide me and help me understand
Can I ever be carefree again
As I was when I was young and vulnerable.

Ready to challenge the world
Giving and receiving freely with so much love
Can there ever be that feelingof safety and contentment
Ready to challenge the world.

I think not as I ponder in thought
I think not.....

[28/01/2005 16:10:26] [From Rediff Blogs]
Stop behaving like child you are a big boy now! When will you understand your responsibilities? For heaven's sake, you are 19 now be a bit more sensible?
I am sure such questions have been posed to all of you by you parents, relative and many others over the years. I still at times get to hear this; I feel I have a long way to go before being called "Mr. mature”. It somehow is expected of you that by the time you are 18 you realize your duties and all the stuff. Nothing wrong with it though, it’s the way we monkeys (ya that’s what we all are) are supposed to grow form one phase to another.I can say fro myself I still am not sure if I have reached the expected level of maturity or even if am progressing towards being a more mature monkey but that is the last thing on my mind. My problem begins with the fact that what all we are turning into from what we were as kids. My problem is what all we lose to become the "complete man”. As we have grown we lose out on our innocence, we lose out on the child within us. We fear "fear”. I remember in my formative years I always did things that I really wanted to obviously I would give it my best shot, hence the success. The fear of failure never crossed my mind; I was playing because it was a passion for me to play not to get a medal or certificate. Sadly it's not so anymore. If u have ever seen a child (less than 1 yr old after that they use their brains and become monkeys) smile trust me you will never see a smile so true in its essence in your life. How things have changed over the years, now everything and anything is done because it's what will help you make a career. It will be good for your Cv do it.
The quest for materialistic success has led to a situation where the material possessions have become so important that every step one takes in life is governed by the fear of losing your money,family,friends,love everything. We are afraid of losing and we are losing. This battle for finding back the child in me will continue. There are times when the child in me comes back but then someone comes and steals it from me and I am the same old sensible monkey again.Well, till the time I see in the mirror a child smiling its Bananas, Please!

[13/01/2005 00:49:17] [From Rediff blogs]
F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

This is dedicated to all my friends from whom I have acquired all the qualities for which people love or hate me.I keep my friends as misers do their treasue, bcos, of all things granted to us by wisdom, none is greater than friendship.

Contrary to general belief that since childhood I have had a lot of friends I have always been a very reserved person and generally don't make friends easily. It somehow doesn't come naturally to me. I will always have a lot of people whom I will talk to and have time pass with but people I can bank upon are very few. I remember my childhood I was always the person who had a lot of people whom I would play cricket with and have a great time but never a friend I would call home and sit and play with.i was as comfortable playing across the street as I was playing alone at home in a make belief world of my own where I was everything from superman to Spiderman to super commando dhruv or just fooling around at home. I somehow never let the two worlds mix. I am still a completely different person when I am at home then when I am anywhere else and I have never bridged this gap actually I have never wanted to let the real me come out in front of this world infect the people who think they know me very well know only what I want them to know about me or perceive of me. But this didn't stop me from living by the belief that human connections need to be cherished in life. Mind you I still have friends from my school days who I will never forget and are perhaps they are my only link to those golden days.
Things though have changed over the last one and a half year for me as I came to this place. I suddenly found that the two worlds I had so successfully kept apart till then suddenly became one and it was happening to quickly for my comfort. As usual I found a lot of people I could talk to but this time there was a difference, these were the people I was now sharing my own world as well and I slowly found that perhaps it was not a bad idea to let the two worlds mix and have not only a good time with your friends but also to let them share your problems and I must admit I have found great friends here but there are times when I feel that perhaps I let go too much of myself and sadly I made a few mistakes along the way. I perhaps have found great friends but in my effort to prove myself to be deserving of their friendship and in the quest for their happiness I have become a source of trouble for them an irritation at times. I understand their point when the want to handle their problems alone and not share their concerns with me especially when they perhaps still are finding out the real me. I would just like to say that I have changed a lot since I have come here and in a way a lot of you are responsible for it. As I said in the beginning I have acquired my qualities from my friends love me or hate me.

[16/12/2004 12:02:48] [From Rediff Blogs]
IMAGINE

Imagine there is no heaven
It's easy if you try
And no hell below us
Above us only sky

Imagine all the people
Living for today
Imagine there's no country
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
Maybe someday you will join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
Or Brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
Maybe someday you will join us
And the world will be as one

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
Maybe someday you will join us
And the world will be as one

[10/12/2004 18:24:36] [From Rediff Blogs ]

All right, all right I agree it's not very smart to stay back for holidays for some goddamn project but then you don't have to pile it on. Every *!@$#%^ guy I meet fires questions at me "when are you going back home?”,” what are you doing here?" and to add to that an exaggerated gasp at the end of my answer(I am going late).So I have developed a fitting reply to the question it goes like,” I am staying back to e-engineer a complex application to make your stay in the green and serene campus of IIT Roorkee resplendent"(no hard feelings they will know what I mean).I know I am a genius two days and now no one dares to come near me. The word has spread Piyush Khandekar has gone nuts....so what do you do on a normal day in roorkee in hols.Get up early in the morning(wish did that in the sems),the first thing you see in the morning is that shrek like haddu trying out his new short lungi...Well finally you manage to get ready trying not to look at him in that outfit and do some work when your lovely friend comes and says grades lag gaye,perhaps the last thing you want after a disastrous sem and yes the grades too are disastrous and imagine the prof then dares to ask you,"So,satisfied" and you manage that sheepish grin and come back to your room.Another disastrous sem!Things aren't very rosy at the work front as the three of us try to make some head and tail of the tutorial on net. Only relief comes when I get to write my diary perhaps the only thing that has and will keep me going for the remaining part. Things get better towards the evening as I do some work and watch a movie or two followed by another diary writing session. Well you people enjoy your holidays while I e-engineer a complex application to..........

[05/12/2004 12:17:19] [From Rediff blogs]
At last another sem comes to an end and as I strolled on the streets of campus only thing I saw were either people going home or going to play some sport and I was left wondering what on earth was I doing here and then I realized I am staying back for a project and talking about projects it seems that currently only two things are going on in roorkee either people are preparing for inter iit or are doing some project of which they don't even know the name under some prof. they have met once. But I guess the point is the sudden burst of enthusiasm among the people at this place to achieve something, to do something I guess everyone has to go this phase. well apart from this project thing I am doing I decided to follow some advice of my friends and try out some jogging and lose the so called fat on my body although I disagree.anyways i got up early in the morning after watching this crappy movie at night.
And trust me neither the fresh air, or the chirping of birds on this chilly, wintry morning of December convinced me that it was after all a good idea to go for the jog so cursing my friends and my mom's advice I decide to go back to bed and read "straight from the gut" an excellent idea I must say. I really admire the spirit of these people going to inter iit who get up early and go for their practice it sure takes some heart. Here’s my best of luck to the whole contingent for their upcoming challenges while I get back to java. see ya soon.
adiós

[22/08/2004 23:03:15] [From Rediffblogs ]

It is just one of those days when you don't feel like doing anything when even reading a novel or watching a movie is not a very interesting idea.so here i decide that i will make a trip to isc braving the cold winds and the morons coming back from chapos.i venture out on my bike hoping to scan some fotu's of mine(this is my new obsession "ME") so here i enter the lonely room with only the ever faithful mouse(both living and non living) giving me company i somehow manage to screw up something as simple as scanning fotu and i am in IMG god help this world! but really i have somehow developed this gr8 ability to screw up things i mean really if someone wants to screw up his/her life i can tell you 1001 ways to do it infact planning to write a book on this might as well screw it up too.see how wonderfully i have screwed up this blog when i could have made it a bit funny and interesting.voila things are getting interesting here some moron of fourth year has come here and he is tearing apart some posters just bcos he doesn't like them and saying some crap abt "my fotu's" now that is getting into serious trouble.Beleive me this guy will never get a job if he doesn't apologise in next few mins.good for him he went away else.........
well some senti stuff now "Take the time today to tell your friends the difference they have made in your life."
i read this quote a moments ago and wondered how many of us actually find the time to tell people around us how much they mean to us whether they be your friends or your parents or your sister/brother how many times have we told them that we love them.i suppose things like this are understood but trust me it feels great doing it and it does make a difference.i sometimes think why is that out of all the people in this world we fight with or offend the person whom you care for most be it your mom/dad or friend at least it is with me and i sometime feel as if either we get to a situation where that person's happiness and sorrow is ours too and we start expecting too much out of each other and that is what causes the tremors.
anyways enough for one day feeling sleepy now at least got over that sick feeling of non existence

[13/08/2004 09:42:10] [From Rediffblogs]
It was a few days back when i had one of those sleepless nights the reasons for which vary from U.FO.'s visiting me to the frogs haunting me to god knows what.but as i sat there on my bed pondering over the events of the past few weeks i realise probably there is a reason to why this semester has begun the way it has.this small little period of my life has made me think a lot and has in a way affected a substantial change in me a change not to be seen physically but yes i know it is there.
one question has been haunting me since i don't know when it's the question that why should i share my problems with anyone why when i know that no one can help me but myself.when i know that it's your own life that is important to everyone and i have to fight my own battles.
why do i need people around me? why do i follow values and principles which will get me nothing but the tag of an emotional fool in this world and nothing else probably some niceties as well.
i fail to realise that i have built a world around me that has all the happiness for me but it's a mere mirage and nothing more and if i don't shed this skin it will cost me a lot in the years to come.it's very important to be practical in today's world and people like me don't do to well if they don't change .
i am not able to accept the fact that years i will not be important to the people round me i will not be the one they want to meet or talk to.i will not be missed and remembered when i am no more and that's the way we alla re selfish with short memories.it's easy to say i will be always there but when you realise what you said you understand it's a big deal you will find other important things to do than your friend's needs some meetin some work something or the other will come in the way.
i guess yes it's true this world is selfish and there are not many fools like me but then i can't help the fact that i still don't see any light at the end of the tunnel and no reason to change but i will find my way my path in time to come.

[02/07/2004 15:16:11] [From Rediff Blogs]
Hi
It all started when me and mom were talking and I commented that if I ever buy a house it will be in chandigarh only.it is the place where I want to live my last years. It sounds like a hindi movie but “yeh meri life hai”(all pun intended).It’s been 17 long years and the city itself has grown in “size” along with me.The first thing that strikes you about the place is it’s “beauty”(as if I get up early to see it)
.I still remember I used to crib during my summer hols and refused to go to nani’s place bcos it wasn’t clean enough and the irony is now my room in hostel is nowhere close to being called clean anyways that’s for another day.I will always cherish the time I have spent in this city and the friends I have made over the years.they are a part of me and have a great part in making me what I am.The city has given me everything from my first debate prize to my first crush to my clearing jee till now......
I don’t know how bad or how good bhopal or it's "people" turn out to be but chandigarh will always remain my home.The only thing I want to do before I go is to meet my teachers I hope I get a chance by 6.Anyways gotta go now another of those food eating meets at someone’s place(this is worse than leaving believe me)
I hope the dream comes true
Bye